One Month

Good Morning DearHearts,

It has been one month since I left the world of working in someone’s office to “retire”.  I am amazed by the changes that have shown up in 30 days.

I went to Disney World the next week, because that is what you do as soon as you either retire or win the Super Bowl. I had not been to visit Mickey is many years and as much as everything was the same it was completely different. The main difference was seeing the experience through the eyes of my 4 year old granddaughter.  The complete immersion into happy fantasy and belief in the large costumed character being the “real thing” was a moment of joy. The willingness to join in the parade around the Crystal Palace with A.A. Milne’s beloved friends brought me to sweet tears.  This was the perfect foray into my next chapter.

My next chapter began upon my return to my home and my new regular activities.  Before I made the difficult decision to release my guaranteed monthly income, I prayed and meditated about whether this was the right time for this life change.  I was continually assured “all will be well”.

I was very happy at my non-profit organization job. I was blessed to work in an environment that was both fun and serious.  I continue to applaud the vital work the organization accomplishes. Actually, I am continuing to assist with the transition of the new person in my previous job.  But the realization that I had given up parts of myself because of my dedication to the organization was when I knew I had to reclaim what I willingly gave, my time.

The process of deciding in the world can be fraught with conflict. This is particularly true when we are making a major life changing decision. Decisions such as moving, marriage, divorce, which college to attend and of course changing jobs are filled with “what ifs”.

What ultimately makes the decision process easier is realizing the decision is simply the decision for peace.  Ask yourself, “In this moment, what will bring peace to my mind”? The answer may surprise you.  It surprised me.

We are whole and holy beings, but can be tempted to give away parts of ourself for what we believe is the “greater good”.  Each fragment that we take away from our wholeness leaves a space to be filled.  If too many facets of our shining self are removed we will end up feeling empty and something must be sought to fill that emptiness.  This is one reason many turn to what ACIM calls “inappropriate means”.  These “means” can be anything from alcohol, food, Facebook or being obsessive in any endeavor.  Even what we deem good or necessary can cross the line of healthy into unhealthy. When I disavow my own good/needs for others I am not giving from my heart but from a sense of guilt.  The thought “If I don’t do it; who will”? is actually an ego thought and not a loving one.

When I realized my thoughts would turn to my job and what I needed to do, while I was trying to focus on a morning meditation or prayer, I knew it was time to release my attachment to my job.  My decision was for my peace.

For some time I was trying to expand my reiki and spiritual counseling sessions.  In truth, I did not actually have enough hours in the day to accomplish this, work, and spend time with my family and friends.  I chose to spend less time with those I love the most in order to “do the right thing”.  This choice did not bring me either happiness or peace.  It was evident I needed to choose again.  I did.

The most interesting thing happened as soon as I made the Decision for Peace, I was contacted to be in spiritual service. The other recognition/ confirmation of my decision is the number of people who told me how relaxed I looked.  I never realized how much my inner stress showed on the outside.

In one month, my spiritual practices have expanded.

In one month, my stress has decreased.

In one month, my happiness has increased.

In one month, I am looking to find a location to start leading a meditation group.

I cannot wait to see what month two brings.

And if you are interested in a private reiki session or counseling- I have the time.

Always Remember YOU Are LOVED Greatly.

In Love, Light and Peace,

Janet Weissman

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