Too Much Light

Good Morning DearHearts,

I have repeatedly mentioned how I see every situation in my life as a metaphor for my own spiritual growth. This is actually the original motivation for my writing adventures that became Good Morning DearHearts.

Every ordinary occurrence in the day to day life we share offers moments of awareness as we step back from the doer to become the observer. These innocuous moments hold jewels of knowledge that wait for the realization of the Truth to dawn on us.

I want to share one of these experiences now.

Last year I finally decided my bathroom needed a small renovation; new paint, new faucets, new towel bars and a new light fixture. Over several months I purchased the necessary objects and then scheduled a handyman to do the installations.

He started with the light fixture and almost immediately there was an issue. When the old fixture was removed the electric source (hole in the wall) for the wiring was not in the center. The lovely light fixture I had purchased would not work, so I needed to return that one and find something else. In the meantime, the handyman left me with one light bulb hanging from the hole in the wall so something would happen when I “flicked the switch”.

Finding a new fixture proved to be more of a quest than I thought and truth be told I did not dedicate much time to the quest. Now several months passed and I had learned to live with a 40 watt illumination. This is proof in itself how we can manage to adapt to a “less than” desired life. More than six months passed before I decided to focus on this situation. I found a new light fixture after a couple of online searches and had it delivered.

When my handyman came back he too was astonished I had lived with that single bulb for so long. He installed the bathroom lamp and instead of one bulb there were now five. The amount of light had increased 400%.

My initial reaction was there is “too much light”. I had become accustomed to practically living in the dark (how did I apply make-up? – but I digress) and now there was an abundance of illumination. I thought about removing some of the bulbs or changing the wattage to decrease the sudden flood of brightness.

Do you see the awareness?

After living a darker existence the light becomes almost too much to handle. This is true in more places than my bathroom.

Although the thought of not being worthy of having light in my bathroom was not one that consciously came into my mind, somewhere it must have existed. What other reason did I have for denying myself the gift of light?

The “Great Rays” of our Fathers Love for us beam down in all aspects our life. We can choose to deny them access to some small or large portion, but they do not cease to be there. When we are ready to allow them full access the Light is fully there because it has waited for our readiness.

The quote from ACIM that I want to share may not seem fully applicable because I was not experiencing physical pain during my single light bulb episode. But, I also was not fully joyous and I was not honoring my Self with the lack of brightness I chose. Whenever we are not completely happy we are choosing to experience some level of pain.

“Tolerance for pain may be high, but it is not without limit. Eventually everyone begins to realize, however dimly, that there must be a better way.” (ACIM T2:III:3:5)

And yes, the word dimly from the quote is quite suitable to this story.

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In Light, Love and Peace
Janet W.
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